Sunday, June 20, 2010

Happy Father's Day

Dear Jess,

You are a wonderful daddy to Jake and I am so excited about seeing you cherish Quinn, too.  I know that you are a little worried about being able to love someone new as much as you love him, but love expands.  It grows and enhances and doesn't deal with division or subtraction.  I'm thrilled about experiencing this truth with the addition of our little girl.

I love how hands on you are with our son.  One of my favorite things to do is sit on the edge of the living room and watch you engage Jake in a game of football.  The smile on his face lights up the room and his laughter is infectious.  He loves you SO much.  Thanks for sharing your passion of football with him.  (Though I'm still hopeful that in high school he'll choose the safer route of band!)  I love how you've stepped outside of your comfort zone to become bedtime reader, rock star singer and master tucker-him-inner at night.  You are fully my life partner in parenting. 

Life circumstances are challenging right now.  Unemployment is difficult.  The future, always unknown, is scarier without the security of employment.  I'm proud of the way you've handled the past couple of months.  You are quicker to see God's hand in your life than you ever have been before.  You are determined to walk on the path of faith, to cling to His promises, yet I know that you are dogged by feelings of helplessness and pessimism.  Your natural tendency is towards an Eeyore outlook on life when things get hard, thank you for not bringing that grey cloud home with you and allowing it to seep into our home and marriage. 

I respect how you've put yourself out there; your willingness to tackle social networking purposefully is a testament to your character.  You are resourceful and resiliant.  You are working so hard to find a job and I am proud of you for that.  I trust you and believe in you. 

Thank you for taking time with your family.  I've really enjoyed our shared lunches and quick excursions to the pool. Thank you for taking better care of your body and using this time to focus on becoming healthier rather than wallowing in comfort foods, television or other distractors.  Thank you for realizing that we are richly blessed, despite our dwindling resources.  Thank you for spending more time in the Word and finding connections with your life and biblical events, people and experiences.  Thank you for your transparency with our small group members and a few others.   

I do not know what the future holds.  Perhaps your worst fears of home loss and foreclosure will be actualized, but even if that does happen, we will continue to love you and lean into our divine Provider.  He is good.  He can be trusted.  He does have a plan for us.  I can walk away from the lovely material possesions that currently make up our world without fear or bitterness.  The things that are important remain untouched:   our love, our health, our family, our faith. 

You are a wonderful father and a loving husband. 
Happy Father's Day. 
We love you. 
We are proud of you.

Love,
Rebecca
(Jake & Quinn) 

Saturday, June 12, 2010

The Hungry little caterpillar


AFTER

BEFORE
Holy cow, this one little guy ate a whole pepper plant in two days. (Okay, the one pictured above was the pepper's sister plant and a bit bigger than the one on caterpillar's breakfast menu, but still!) He was HUGE after his gluttony. Wish a friendly bird had spotted him before the total decimation of our plant and made HIM breakfast.

I've been thinking a lot about the symbolism of this feast, though, in regards to our life circumstances right now and if I wasn't so sleep deprived I could probably make some intellectual connections but I'm thinking:
1. The caterpillar represents greed/gluttony of our nation....selfishness & egocentrism. One "bug" can destroy a whole natural habitat, rather than eating a little here and there and then moving on. (Though he did leave some nice fertilizer behind.)
2. The critter could also represent destructive thoughts, eating up truth and trying to destroy God's numerous promises. If we don't tend to our garden daily and communicate with God, read His word, we could easily allow His truth and promises to slip away from our hearts and minds.
3. Being on one salary is a challenging task. If we are not good stewards, all of our finances could dwindle away quickly. We need to face this challenge with courage and creativity!